Happy October! The countdown to Halloween begins!
Happy almost October! I’ll be posting on this blog from time to time so expect some new posts at some point.
I’m not going to be posting anything for a while, so here is a gif instead.
I sometimes have this feeling that I may come off as rude or mean. But, I’m always nice. Even though I’ll have one of those days when I feel like I’m not myself.
I think the problem is with my attitude. It can get bad.. and I don’t think anyone is going to like someone with a bad attitude. I also think its because I’m dealing with my own problems right now.
Well, mostly problems with myself in general.
I would vent on this post but I don’t want it to get long and boring.
Do you ever get that feeling sometimes when you want to do something but you are either too scared to do it or don’t want to end up making people angry? Or some other form of reason?
That is how I feel sometimes. I feel like doing the things I want to do but I am scared since I have no idea whats going to happen. And when I do manage to do the things I want to do, I feel a sigh of relief washing over me.
But, another problem is that when you want to do the things you want to do, you end up in a tight spot. You really want to do the things you have dreamed of doing, or want to do in your life before you get older and it seems like there is something blocking that way to prevent you from doing so.
Sometimes the things I want to do in life, are either derailed because of the things that are blocking me from doing so. (Being scared, Wanting to say something but trying to find the right words, etc.) Or its just my lack of confidence and not being able to do it right away but instead doing other things instead to avoid doing it.
Being an adult is difficult for making decisions on your own. (At least to me anyway) Because you don’t know whats going to happen and you start to freak out and panic and you start to overthink about it and your emotions get in the way.
It also doesn’t help when you worry way too much about it not happening at all.
That’s how life works and.. to be honest, I don’t like having these concerns or worries. It makes me feel unable to stand up and make decisions on my own without feeling that way.
But they are good for worrying about your parents or friends.. Other times.. not so much..
Sometimes there are things we don’t want to remember from a long time ago. We just want to forget about them. But sometimes, even if you don’t want to remember they will find a way to resurface back into your life.
I have those things that I don’t want to remember from a long time ago. They were mostly related to a game called Roblox. Things are fine now but back then, it was different than expected today.
I do not wish to remember them, but they were really out of control. I even tried to defend myself from those situations but I ended up losing those people who were those so called friends.
That may sound wrong, but thats what I believed happend a long time ago. I am no longer friends with those people but its probably for the best that I just find new friends to hang out with.
Even if those people I used to be friends with a long time ago still blame me for whatever I did in the past.
Which is why I keep a close eye on the people I hang out with and make sure they don’t end up crossing the line on my front. Because they don’t want to see me when I get defensive.
There is only one thing I will never understand in life. How people can be so impatient and demanding something from others, and maybe you. To be honest, I think they were raised like that so they can get whatever they want.
The problem with that is they will try anything to get their way across the board. Online or in Real Life. But they will suffer the consequences if they try anything like that. And even if you try to tell the truth to them, they will just shrug it off like its no big deal.
I think a majority of those people are just like that because they want to be all high and mighty out in the real world. I think thats why the world has those kinds of people to make society seem like it was punched in the face.
Sometimes I don’t understand people with a lack of patience. And just want to get into things right away instead of waiting around. Take WoW for example.
Tuesdays are usually Maintenance and Rolling Restarts. Now people start to complain on the forums about it since its a waste of their time and they find it unacceptable because they won’t be able to play.
But what people don’t understand is that Blizzard has to do what they are supposed to do by fixing things. If things are not fixed, then the game would be filled with bugs and glitches if they stop doing what they are doing because of people complaining.
I think people complain for the sake of complaining. They want to get their own way, and I don’t think complaining on the forums is a good idea. They want to play but they don’t want to wait a very long time to do so. They want to play now and if they don’t, they will rage quit and never play the game anymore.
To be honest, I don’t mind if Blizzard does maintenance or rolling restarts. I can do other things while thats going on but other people will just complain..and complain. I’m just worried that they will end the maintenance early due to the complaints.
The one problem I don’t like with myself is that, even if I do my best, I get worried that I have to start over from scratch. But the problem is that time is usually not on my side. Most of the time, I don’t pay attention and just sit there staring at my computer.
And well, with something like this, I think its a negative trait. I don’t pay attention very often and when I do, my brain is focused on paying attention to one thing at a time. Because if it pays attention to other things, my brain will just forget what it is actually focusing on.